Lighten UP!

As an empath, I feel everything and everyone. As a result, I often feel heavy. I do not feel joyous, I do not feel playful or happy unless for a few seconds because I am constantly burdened by heavy emotions, most of which are not even mine.

Seems like most of my life, I have been trying to solve problems, mine and not mine (mostly not mine). And I forgot to celebrate life. And all the blessings that are coming my way.

Today, I got to spend some time with some cheery and chatty people. And I just felt a way a wave of joy wash over me and it felt so good. It felt SOOO good. The feeling of being carefree! I felt that for a short bit and it was so delicious.

I went home and for a little while, I was scrolling through Explore section on Instagram for travel. I was asking myself – what would it FEEL like to be on vacation, at this resort or that resort. What would it feel like to be in nature? What would it feel like to take a trip with my parents?! What would it FEEL like… And it felt so good to just let myself feel good, feel carefree.

I am rather successful at my work. Big part of why it is the case is because I am paranoid about doing something wrong and letting someone down. While it is hugely beneficial for my company because I am known as someone who can get stuff done, the flip side is that I am anxious most of them time. I am ALWAYS thinking what I need to do and then I do it and then I am thinking what else I need to do. There is no break. EVER.

While I do not want to be less successful, I will make it a point to LIGHTEN UP. I will let myself feel carefree for a bit here and there and just be light, just laugh and enjoy dinner, enjoy friends, a date, etc. There is no need to go into heavy stuff. There is time and place for that. I am going to start prioritizing joy!

Especially when it comes to dating.. A date should be light hearted and fun. I used to have a tendency to discuss pretty heavy stuff because I am an expert at it by now. I am not an expert however at being light hearted. But I will become one. I deserve it. My soul deserves to feel joy. It is ok to let go of the problems of the world for a bit and just be joyous!

I am learning another language and it made me think of this: I read a book on memorization that said to memorize words, we need to associate a word with a really ridiculous and funny image. It stays in memory that way. So, may be being more happy and looking for fun and funny things is good for you.. 🙂